I had a dream about you last night. Maybe I should call it a nightmare because it was kind of scary.
I somehow had separated your body in this dream, and I got the idea that if I just plugged your pieces back together like gigantic legos, I could bring you back to life. So I did it. And you came back mean. There was no good Neil, it was all bad Neil.
In my dream I regretted bringing you back, and I told my dad I'd made a big mistake. That now I was going to have to live with bad Neil for the rest of my life because I'd brought you back.
Wow, huh?
I also realized this week that you are around here less and less. I don't know if I'm letting go of the constant thoughts of you, or if you really are letting go of us and visiting less often. I don't know. I just know I don't feel you like I did.
I thought I would be relieved when that happened, but somehow it's just sad.
Heather, I'm sorry you went through this. I know too well how those "real" dreams can make you feel, even when they're about the mundane. HUGS.
ReplyDeleteMaybe the dream was you realizing you couldn't fix him? You wanted him to be all better and he couldn't be. I hope your dreams turn sweet soon. xoxo
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